The Sacrament of the Throat

I had earlier provided confession in the manner of the allegations of heresy against me for my refusal to subourn myself before G-d and bear false witness to others, as well as myself, in the matters pertaining to the acceptance of the blood oath of Jesus of Nazareth, also known as Jesus Christ. I have attested to this matter formally and under duress, but understand such duress not to be that which was provided by man, but rather to have been permitted before G-d as a testament to the character and faith of the inquisitor.

As I have said, I understand it to be abominable to my faith to accept the blood oath as others have permitted for themselves to so engage. I also understand it itself to be an act of heresy, required not of or by G-d, but rather to be attributable to a weakened will of man that seeks to elevate himself over the will of G-d. It is not only impious, but it is also aimed at defiling men and women of faith so as to subordinate them and their souls to false pretenses of men who lack conviction and attest to profess a faith which they refuse to themselves practice. The meaning of such things and the reasons for why a man would so permit himself to engage such heresy is between that man and G-d, but it is not capable for me to accept that such a compelled demonstration is in any manner required of or by G-d. It is rather a testament to the times itself and attributable to moral weakness of the man or woman who would so engage it.

I understand such torment to have been performed on me for several years openly, when I was spiritually and morally mature to take responsibility myself for my actions. However, I also understand such torment to have been compelled upon me from before I was old enough or mature enough to know the ways of the Lord and what would be required by G-d as a demonstration of faith to H-m. For one to be acknowledged without the other is to deny the evidence of the act of torment as a matter by which to compel a conscious display of the heresy. For one to require a knowing commitment to follow the path of the G-dly and to also refuse to acknowledge injustice in affronting the innocent is to refuse to acknowledge the importance of those who are called to faith, whether through ministry or the rite of ordination, to administer the holy word and to assure that those who are blessed with such consciousness by G-d himself are provided with what is necessary to protect them from false acts or rites attempting to subject persons of faith to heresy. It is also in such regard that one must account for a refusal to live by that which one espouses, including to protect the innocent as opposed to exploiting one's own innocents in an effort to falsely attempt to entrap others whose political views on administration do not comport with a rival sect.

I see this continuing effort at torment to be a political shortcoming of those from whom it originates, and not to be in line with an espoused faith tradition. To refuse to converse with one willing to engage in word and deed in G-dly work, but rather to attempt to work sorcery in compelling one against their own reason, as well as against their own faith, to submit to a man -- including one of the cloth -- in a false confession for no sin of his own before G-d is to accede to accepting that man is above G-d. This is not the matter.

We have been provided with a means by which to appropriately consider the sins of each woman and man individually insofar as they impact the greater community. The sacrament of confession shall not be abused in order to work politics through sorcery. This is known to us all. Whosoever shall determine it for themself to instead work sorcery in order to compel a relinquishing of one's faith so as to appear before man to be subservient to his designs -- even insofar as those designs are at the behest of still other men -- is not doing G-dly work. He is also not professing or engaging in or as an act of faith.

How many centuries shall one attempt to torment other souls while tormenting his own? It would be an insult to G-d to deny that throughout the ages he has seen to it to bless us among the faithful in battle. To refuse to acknowledge both the role and power of spirit when one must take to arms is to refuse to be honest and show integrity in the blessings and duties we accept and receive from the Lord. G-d provides to each generation men and women capable of great grace and glory in recounting of their own faith the workings of G-d in and through us as his people. But to refuse to engage every effort both celestial and terrestrial to do whatever can be done before taking up the sword is to refuse to attend fully to our duties. The ecstasy of one in torment, including the redemption that protracted torment affords to the act of expiation of a tormented soul, is for G-d -- not for man. To persist in tormenting a man or woman only to reap the spirit of the tormented for oneself without also attending to one's own duties to commit to the sacraments, including of confession and attendant processes of redress, is to profane one's calling. There is a higher standard for one so called -- including in consideration of abuse of the holy calling and the blessings that can be accorded onto one and one's community. To deny blessings to one's community by committing to unjust torments is itself an act of heresy.

To engage one in contestation around matters of faith or to challenge one for their actions in accordance with that which they profess is one matter, but to persist in tormenting another person merely to rob them and their people of wealth of spirit given unto them by the Lord himself is a miserable heresy. It remands your people to spiritual poverty, a poverty for which one must borrow on over and over against by tormenting the souls of the holy and the righteous. It is a covetesness that constitutes a great sin, and one that certainly can and does afflict the body of the people as well as the soul of each among the people. Would you deny your own people the language through which to read and know the words of the Lord for themself? This is an holy thing. Insofar as one can have the language to know the Lord then one also has the capacity to engage it in praise. Should not this be a better suiting to the needs of the spirit than to torment others whose love of G-d and all that he offers also provides them the courage to engage in deep matters of spirit? Am I only to find you so engaged as the enemy, attempting to compel through torment and terror a profession of heresy that is not in my capacity to provide?

How many more eons must you profane the Lord with actions that attests to YOUR lack of faith? How many more eons must you squander spirit on blood? G-d did not require the sacrifice of his son in order to know the faith of those he had chosen. Why should you -- as a man -- require the sacrifice of a soul committed to a life of contemplation and examination in order to more fully know the glory of faith in such a manner?

I contend instead it is you who are the heretic. You profess to know what constitutes the sin that you attempt to compel confession on in your torments and yet you yourself do not uphold the word that is so alleged to inform your inquisition. You have become the tribunal who would sell of the virtuous rather than commit yourself to addressing through the faith you espouse to welcome in what might otherwise be a brother or a sister. Have you so failed at providing the guidance to know the truth that you would stoop to spilling blood, including to expel the spirit, rather than to commit yourself to the work of G-d?

It is not your place and neither is it mine to spill blood. Such is only at the behest of G-d, But it is known to us that G-d shall, if you require, provide you with the means by which to reveal your own infamy if the need is such. Do you need to confess? How many more eons would your put your demon on another and expect for us to bear it?

That is all your blood oath is. You profane the blood of another in order to cover up for the crimes you committed against your own. You have denied yourself fellowship, shared in spirit of faith, and instead debase yourself to that which was not permitted. What shall we do with you?

What is that which your heart seeks? You would keep a man from knowing glory through his own faith to appease you and your unholy mandate. Must I take your heart from you to preserve my calling? How many eons will you persist?

12:14 pm CST

July 7, 2022

Charity Colleen Crouse

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